Dear, Anita..

Taking your wise advice, I am now trying to see and learn what’s the truth behind everything. Right now, I am at this phase where I can slowly begin to tell the difference between two voices in my head.

The one is the depressed mind talking and keeping me down all the time. Achieving paradoxical effect everytime, it asks me to do something right away, do some works, pay my debts. Then suddenly, in the middle of a project it told me to stop any of my efforts for it’ll never washed away the disappointment I caused to those who loved me.

And the other one is probably the real me, who asks me to take it slow. Give myself some time, a break from all of this chaos I have cause. This one is actually asking me to wait for the right moment before getting back to work and fix things. This one is actually telling me that it’s okay to wait, don’t worry about the age as it is only numbers. It says that when all the disappointment and shame washed away, eventually, I will find myself again before I realize.

What do you think about the things I started learn to see, Anita? Do you think I’m on the right track this time?

Dee.