Hi Poppy,

When I said my marriage is nothing to Do with his cousin is when I thought of sending him the recorded phone call between myself and my husband and i decided not too because it was between us too.

I spoke to my husband when leaving work and I told him to stay at his and stay out and he said why didn’t I want to see him? It costs £30 for a taxi and then he mentioned about getting the train and the station is 10 mins away from mine and I would have picked him up and let me know if he decides to stay out.
I have no problem with him Enjoying himself.

When I go out with my friends he is usual with me or when I do have plans I cancel them like the other week I had a MBE party to go too but he wanted date night on the same night. And too me he comes first and I contacted my friend to let her know I wouldn’t be coming.

A few times in the past when my husband goes out and drinks fights happen that was my concern. That’s why I contacted his mum as she is aware of this.

My past I’ve worked hard on my confidence and my self esteem that’s why I’m in a hard place because for once I’m standing up for myself asking for respect and apparently that’s wrong.
I had a counsellor for my PTSD and I’ve been fine since completing treatment with visulasions and such. My confidence grows everyday I started a new course last week so go into a nursing roles and further myself.

I’d love to be able to talk to my husband hes in ignor mode so I make it worse if I contact him. I wait till he contacts me once he’s had his time….