I think myself as selfish but I am willing to sacrifice anything for people who can pass my “test”

I’ve never been found of the idea of “the test”. Perhaps due to my own experience of a girlfriend to which everything became a test. Being human it was inevitable that I failed but not until l my sense of self was totally confused.

Perhaps taking yourself out of your current way of thinking could be helpful. Why not erase the chock board and start over.

Perhaps start by taking some time to reconnect to your own understanding of love, relationship… when you use those words what are you really saying?

Very much recommend
How to Be an Adult in Relationships: The Five Keys to Mindful Loving – by David Richo as a guide