Thanks Anita. I think I just keep going back and fourth between his good qualities and bad qualities. He had so many good ones. He was affectionate, thoughtful, and funny, more than any other guy I have been with. I’m just missing those parts of him so much, and am scared that no one is going to amount to those qualities about him.
Every morning I wake up and I forget this has happened for a second, then realize that I’m alone, and he’s not in the bed with me, and it devastates me.
His bad qualities however, (picking fights, his temper, walking on eggshells), I don’t miss at all. I just wish we could have solved that to be together.