Dear Tannhauser:

It reads to me that it was a good choice on your part to quit church- it is congruent with your well expressed sentiments on the matter.

A decision was made to subtract the mobility part of your benefits- you were probably notified if there is a way to appeal that decision. I hope there is and if there is, that you will follow through with it.

* Regarding your mobility- I assume there are exercises recommended for your specific physical situation, recommended by a competent medical doctor/ professional, that you can do daily. Exercise/ stretching, designed for your body, your specific challenges, can be very helpful to improve your health and mobility.

Regarding your father’s reaction to your sharing of the tactile hallucination and other strange experiences in your body- is unbelievably rude and unloving. I wish he did not respond that way. But he did, and I understand your reluctance to share again, so to avoid his rude reaction and your mother’s consequent reaction.

Regarding tactile hallucinations- one in particular come to my mind, in my own experience. When I was a teenager I was convinced that I was awake at night, on one occasion that I remember, and that for a long time during that night, a cat walked over my body. I clearly remember, as I type these very words, I remember the feet of that cat walking all over me, slowly, quietly, taking her time. And I remember lying there, not moving, waiting. For years, I think, I wondered about that, knowing there was never a cat in the apartment where I lived. But it felt so real, it must have been real, somehow.

It amazes me, at this point, to think of that experience as a “tactile hallucination”- I didn’t think of it as such, until I read your term today.

Post more, anytime, if it is helpful to you in any way.

anita