Dear Tannhauser:

Regarding you giving up your Christian beliefs: this seems to me congruent with your awakening process. It is congruent with your value of speaking your truth regardless of consequence.

The consequences you already suffered, socially, is losing your comfort in your association with the church and with your parents. You reached out to both, to the priest, and to your parents but they dismissed you or otherwise rejected you, even threatened to disown you (the verb you used).

You wrote that your home doesn’t feel like home anymore (the comfort is gone), that you are struggling to cope with “the self-centered, controlling, narrow-minded behaviours of certain people in my family”-

that fits with what you wrote yesterday: “Love doesn’t exist. It is artificial like most things.”

You wrote that you are leaving tomorrow- I hope that means that you are leaving to a place where you can receive the medical treatment you still need for your kidney transplant, and where your physical survival is taken care of best possible.

As to your suffering, I do so hope that leaving your no-longer-home responsibly (above paragraph) will result in alleviation of suffering. I hope you do post again. I will miss you if you don’t and I will reply to you every time you do post, as long as you want me to.

If and when I see your name as posting again, with your thoughts and feelings, with your experiences, whatever they are, I personally, will be pleased. I do wish you the best possible.

anita