Dear Daniel Wong Ching Kiong:

You wrote earlier: “i am wonder, if god punish us by giving us the ability to imagine”-

Let me know if I understand correctly, and correct me where I misunderstood:

Your passion is in art (“I have so much to say through my art”). You imagine successfully saying all you have to say through your art; successfully meaning, people see your art, admire it, value it and pay for it, and so you are able to make a living as an artist, maybe make a lot of money as an artist.

But the gap between what you imagine and the reality of your every day life is big, and often overwhelming. In the dreams you are a paid artist, valued, admired, considered to be a genius (“I always think myself as a secret genius”). In reality, at that one day job, you worked in a dusty, smelly environment lifting heavy packages.

The gap between the desire, the imagined life and the actual life is huge. That leaves you paralyzed, like a person looking at a very tall mountain, a mountain that seems impossible to climb.

Let me know if my understanding is correct and I will proceed.

anita