Thanks Inky

Its a tough situation because I do not want to burn any bridges or retreat. Ive been involved going on two years now. Also your right there is a very high conflict and I have to figure out how to make that work.But somewhere along it looks like I will have to be more straightforward about thier expectations and my commitments which has been a longtime challenge because I always say yes and want to help everyone and everything. Now I am finding that I also have to work on myself within this group sitting silent because I am not all silent i just want to participate and make a difference sometimes it can be too often i have to work on  improving my communication reliabilty trustworthiness which is all very hard for me because Its hard to change myself esp. When i feel or think something im very impulsive This thought of how I could be better stays with me