Thank you, Jenn! The good thing about being single these past few years is that I have been able to work on myself and I know I need to keep doing that.

Anita, I have been seeing a therapist for awhile and we have touched on a lot of this. She thinks (and honestly I agree) that I have abandonment issues from my mom dying. I am terrified of being left. Romantic relationship wise, I have had healthy ones and some not so healthy ones. I can see why I hold on so strong even though I know in some cases they aren’t that good for me. But I’m still not sure why I get attached in the first place. I’ve been thinking a lot about what you said but haven’t formed completely why it resonated with me. I have really great girlfriends and an amazing, supportive dad. But for some reason I crave those romantic relationships too.

I also really agree with your comment on routine. I do very very well with routine. My life has been crazy lately so maybe I need to focus more on getting back into routines (eating better, consistently going to the gym, etc). My therapist has also kindly recommended yoga and meditation but that is hard for me to do!