Dear X:

I will be glad to answer your questions at another time. For now, I will withdraw my previous question (too general) and ask a specific question:

In an earlier post you wrote: “when I became a teenager, I was sort of jealous of my parents being together and enjoying each other’s company whereas I was kind of an additional alien element”. Can you elaborate on you feeling like “an additional alien element”?

We mentioned the forest and the trees analogy before. The reason I choose to not answer your questions in the last post, at this point, is because there are very many trees in that forest of your thoughts: “I always try to look at things from different angles… to see all the pros and cons (trees) , pluses and minuses (trees), which often leaves me hitting a dead end (not seeing the forest)”

You have two M.A degrees. You have read and can read further (more) answers to any questions you have, answers from the most educated, famous scholars in the world, past and present. As I see it, you don’t need, at this point, more “trees”. You need to see the “forest”.

If you want to see the forest, there are specific trees you are not seeing and without seeing those you cannot see the forest. I am pointing to a specific tree, at this point: it is in the specific question I asked you at the beginning of this post.

It is your right to not answer it, of course. Answer it only if you are okay with answering it. You do not owe me an answer, not at all. Really, it is up to you.

anita