Dear Lisa:

I will start with Part One, and continue over time with following parts. If after any part posted, you want me to stop and not go further, let me know, and I will stop. If you want me to continue, it is better for me that you don’t comment until I am done. (I will let you know when I am done).

Lisa’s Story, Part One:

My name is anita. This story is about Lisa. Before telling her story she wrote: “I might be somewhat vague.” I looked up synonyms for “vague”: unclear, ill-defined, hazy, blurred, out of focus, obscure, dim, amorphous, unknown.

Antonyms for vague: clear, defined, focused, known.

As a consequence of Lisa’s terror in early childhood, being Scared and Alone, she has suffered from ADHD (Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder), from a very early age to this very day, at 48.

Being easily distracted; having difficulty processing and organizing information, understanding minute details, maintaining focus on and completing tasks (including writing her story); seeming to not be listening when spoken to, excessively daydreaming, being easily confused, blurting out inappropriate comments, showing her emotions without restraint, throwing tantrums… all these features prevented her from graduating high school, from developing a career, and from forming and maintaining relationships.

This is why she opened her story with: “I might be somewhat vague.” And indeed her story lacks detail and focus. She lived a life of great internal distress and that distress prevented her from paying attention to her environment. And so, yes, her story lacks detail.

I want to tell her story in a clear, defined, focused way. I want Lisa known. My problem in telling her story is that I will need to add detail here and there, to bridge gaps, and so, there will be some fiction in it. Yet, in every biography there is some fiction and some inaccurate projections by the writer, including in autobiographies.