Tannehauser I hope that today you discover that the negative things you are attached to serve no purpose to you, and that you are embraced my endless possibilities of love and happiness. As I read your posts, I see many people such as Fingerist and Anita, among others, who offer you solid advise and strong hope to hold on to so that you can nurture that hope and advice and incorporate it into your life. What I also see is that your communication with these people offering you help is that your responses seem to be a lot of, “yes but” type of reactions. The “yes but” approach diminishes the help people offer you and elevates the “yes but” to a level of most important than what is being offered. You said, ” The more these energies come into me, the more empty I feel.” What does the energies that Anita and Fingerist and others make you feel? Speaking to your comment of “I want happiness and contentment. I have had enough of chasing after God and spiritual things and I just want to be like I used to be prior to 2013. Unfortunately, I can’t do these things.” To say you can’t do these things is a choice. If you can’t do “these things” who can? You said, “And in all these four years, not one person has offered ANY explanation for what I have experienced and how I might alleviate it. No one has helped in the slightest.” The only explanation I can see, given what you say, is that your anger is a viable explanation that I think will help you much if you should choose to explore that. For you to say “No one has helped in the slightest” is only because you do not open your heart and mind and soul of the help offered to you. I think you want other people to change you. Only you can change you. Doing this opens your life to so many amazing things that you are missing. Please let go of your anger. It is harming you in ways that you do not deserve. But to do this, you must have unconditional love for yourself. And you can do this because you are worth it. Let go Tannehauser. Throw out the trash. There is much waiting for you that will bring you so much love and happiness.