Dear Sophie:

You can post from Canada, if you are able and willing, and I will reply.

You wrote: if I was to stay and not travel would I be 100 per-cent satisfied with him?” The answer is clear as far as I understand it: you will not be 100% satisfied, not even close. How can you be when you are not sure if he loves you (not knowing if it is him or you), when you are Anxiously Attached, when you are partly motivated to not be in an intimate, romantic relationship…

You are less conflicted about traveling, so you are going to. I hope you continue to enjoy your traveling. Keep being honest with the guy, tell him how it is for you, what motivates you, the conflicting motivations. And keep living your life passionately.

anita