Hi, all! My apologies for the late response.

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@Dee,

You’re right; I should stop analyzing so much about why she makes me feel uncomfortable and just accept it. I’ve been trying to figure out why for the longest time as to why I feel that way towards her and until now, there’s no definite answer. Maybe it’s about her or most likely about the pre-existing situation I’ve talked about with @anita before.

They haven’t talked or hung out in a while which – as bad as it sounds – makes me feel relieved. When I talk to her or hang out with her, I feel completely fine and actually vibe with her. However, when she and my boyfriend are in the same setting, it changes my mood in a second and my trust for her goes away. It’s a funny thing the way the mind works.

My boyfriend has been the most understanding about this situation. All he has shown me are love and patience, and has constantly reminded me that there is nothing to worry about. I trust him and he hasn’t given me any reason not to… except maybe from what I mentioned before. There are a lot of things I have to let go of… Sigh.

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@anita,

The nanny story has been in the back of my mind ever since. I’ve mentioned it to him again and he understands where I’m coming from because he has similar feelings from his childhood. Every time I start getting anxious regarding him and the female friend, I visualize the story of the nanny and I start to have a less clouded mind. It just gets exhausting… I’ve developed a habit of ruminating over the situation as if there’s no tomorrow.

I’m hoping there’s another way to resolve the pre-existing feelings… 🙁