@NewLife123 said:
Dear Cloud:

I think I understand. You are secretly holding on to hope. You are prepared for nothing more than friendship once you visit her, during the visit and afterwards. You prepared both of you for that, it being friendship only. You didn’t put any pressure on her. Unselfishly, you are hoping. I write unselfishly, because there is no pressure on her.

It will be interesting, this visit you are planning. I suppose there is no pressure on you either, no expectations on either side. No expectations- no pressure. And I suppose you can handle that hope that you do have, and the visit can be a positive experience for you either way, friendship alone, or friendship and a love relationship.

anita