I’m demisexual, asexual, homoromantic. I do want a relationship in the future but I want a strong platonic relationship first before becoming romantically involve. The thought of being romantic and sexually active makes me nervous. My ex best friend use to tease and flirt and be  physical toward me even when I asked her to stop she still continued. So if someone treats me in that way I’ll overthink their actions that they are using me. If someone wants to be close to me physically then that said person must understand what I’ve been through for me to trust them enough to be that close to me. I’m a virgin, I don’t care if I die as one. As long as I know what true love is and experience that love. It is enough for me. If my current friend developed feelings for me then she must take it slow and be patience. This what I have to live with my fear of being lead on, so if anyone wants to be with me romantically they must understand what I’ve been through. I’m too afraid to go further with anyone. So making friends is all I can do, I don’t know how to be physically romantic or romantic in general I only know how to treat people right. And yes I will shower gifts to my close friends cause that is how I show love. And being their for them no matter what.