You are a man with this story and I am a woman with a little modified story. Here goes what I have been going through. My religion doesn’t allow sex before marriage too. I married my husband without even knowing him. He turns out to be the biggest swine on earth– liar, an unfaithful husband, a womanizer(a man who sleeps with my maid). He has a temper to add to all this. I can never pray for Him from my heart: my expectations were sky rocketing before and now after trying to take my life thrice, I have come to the conclusion that his caring for my three children is useless. He will never change. All I should do is to be on forums like these and enjoy my life. Ofcourse I wouldn’t want to get into a relation with any other man cause all men are senseless. They only know how to hurt a woman especially their wife.