I’m confused about your question, what are you asking?

Yes, I am emotionally attached to her as she became attached to me as well. She practically rushed the friendship, we became so close so unexpectedly. She was very willing to help me through my heartbreak, supporting and encourging me through the whole process even though I was hurt and afraid to get close to anyone since my break up. As many times that I try to be distant she’ll tap on my wall that I’ll open for her to let her in even though I have trust issues for some reason I just couldn’t stop going to her whenever my anxiety takes over. I knew deep down that I needed to take a step back of this new found friendship cause of my attachment was very serious that I was obsessed for her comfort. I’ve stated this to her many times last year, no matter what she wanted to stay by my side. She let me in her life and I let her in mine.

I wonder why she was doing this, I began to think she just wanted my attention alone or using me in some way. But she wasn’t, she was desperate for a friend cause of her abusive ex (they dated 2014-15 18 months) limited her from a social life from family and her friends. Once she finally left him she wanted to explore her freedom and become a better person than she once was before. She had a hard life in the past.

She and I are very similar, we are both big hearted, selfless, honest and true types of people that will attract narcissist. We also have a good sense of humor and love to talk about anything. As of today I call her my best friend.

All I know what this friendship is is two women who had their heart broken by someone we thought would love us, women who want to be seen for who we are and loved for who we are. Women that need to focus on ownselves to find love within. she has her whole life of ahead of her, she needs to grow and move forward with her life to find herself. As do i.

I have already had my talks to my therapist about my realtionship with my new found friend, I understand what I am going through with this attachment. I just need to move on cause we have our own separate lives and we need to stay focus on our own selves for now. She’ll always be on my mind and I will always wonder if we ever will be more than what it is now. But I have to get my head out of the clouds and live my life here. I am so looking forward to actually meeting her next year. I just struggle with my feelings for her from time to time.