Hi Cruzzie…

When I read your post it was like reading my sister, about a situation she lived years ago…. So I’m going to tell you her story…

My sister was gay in a Latin American country, I’m not saying is not hard to be gay anywhere but in Latin American is incredibly hard, anyways she being gay wasn’t the issue… but to understand my sister you have to understand she went through years of bullying in school that went along with years of therapy as well.

So… my sister is very unique, she might seemed happy but i know she wasn’t the thing is after a bad breakup she tried to kill herself… and ended up in a coma for 9 days… she said afterwards that she can remember exactly how everyone visited her, how people talked to her but the thing about this is I saw her reach the bottom and then I saw her come back.

After that event my sister realized something and was that life was what she wanted it to be, it took her one year to finish school and move to Australia, went to grad school, and nowadays is a successful wife and filmmaker living in the US.

She didn’t do anything specific… she just changed her view of life… things stopped bothering her, I know is hard but let’s take an example… if you want to eat a pizza you go eat the pizza, pretty much the rest is exactly the same, if you want to love someone you’ll look for someone to love, the important thing is that the fact that what you want is not with you right now it doesn’t mean you’re not going to have it, it just mean you don’t have it yet…

Just so you know it’s been 13 years since she tried that… and she hasn’t gone back to therapy or being depressed, So i guess what i’m saying is… this will pass and you’ll make it pass and you’ll come out way better than before.