Dear Tidea Janamori:

Regarding your trouble with talking, I think it is a combination of two things: anxiety and habit. The anxiety part, the ongoing fear, may have originated with someone early in your life misunderstanding what you said, or your intent in saying what you said, disapproving of what you said, using what you said to attack you in some way. So you learned that talking is dangerous, therefore, you stopped talking.

The other part is habit. It became a habit to not talk. Habits are hard to break no matter what they are.

Your sentence in the post before last includes these two parts:

“I just gained this habit not express what I feel and when things like meeting a person whom I reeeally like just brings me back to my old fears to not be understood… Anxiety”

anita