Hi Lisa,

First my apologies, I’m trying to send you a private message but I don’t know if this is one.

I have not read all of your post since there are 10 pages of them (incl. the reactions on your post) and I didn’t want my massage to be focused on all of the details.

I think we came from a really different background but I have a feeling I can relate to your problem. I grow up very isolated and in a unfriendly environment. I also have some problems with feeling lonely. Of course I can’t blame anyone because I am a adult now and responsible for all my own actions. Just as you in the past (and even now) my first priority was a roof above my head and paying the bills (and staying in school). I’m trying to make more connections but as all things in life there are a lot of setbacks. I don’t feel like a negative person. I have so many interests and thing that I love but sometimes feelings overwhelm me. I’m trying to find a way to deal with these emotions/feelings because I strongly believe If I’m able to sett aside by anxieties things will work out. I’ve been practicing yoga and meditation for 2 years now and I would love to find someone with whom I can share experiences with regarding the mental aspects yoga and mediation to help myself grow and learn.

I’m not sure what I want to ask or say to you but something in your message triggered a emotion in me. I don’t know how I can help you but it would mean a lot to me to have some to share experiences with and get some advise from.

Lucy