Hi Apples333,

I too have felt the same way. I think it comes from my childhood. I was taken away by the courts from my Alcoholic Mother, and my Aunt and Uncle became my legal guardians. My Uncle worked for International Weyerhaeuser. He had to be transferred alot, by the time I was 10 years old I had lived in 4 countries, and six states. My first language was Spanish. My mother was somewhat of a gypsy. She constantly moved. She craved excitement. She was a model, and always has men taking her to glamorous places. I think I got alot of my need for moving around alot and being bored from her, and as a result, from my childhood.

In my twenties, I moved to Sarasota, Florida, to be with my real father. He too, worked for the paper industry, was a very successful Harvard Graduate and owned paper Mills in Jamaica, South Africa, Alicante, Spain, Costa Rica. He also had a beautiful apartment in Manhattan, and a ski Lodge/House in Lake Arrowhead, California. He was always sending me plane tickets so I could see him as we were very close.

I too developed alot of friendships in Florida, I lived there for 12 years, the longest time I had ever lived lived anywhere. My Aunt and Uncle even moved there to be closer to me and my Dad. However, I started to get restless and bored. I went from job to job. Nothing have me purpose. I was always in pursuit of excitement, and it even sabatoge my relationships, when the romance fizzled.

I then moved all the way across the country hoping to find “happiness” in Seattle, Wa. I was happy there for the first two years when everything was new and exciting, but found myself, getting restless and bored again. I could not find anything to make me happy. I too missed my family in Florida.

Then one day, I realized, I was looking in the wrong places for happiness, and I would never find it by moving to different states. You won’t find happiness just be being married and moving to a different state. Being married, is difficult and will not being you happiness. Maybe temporary, but problems set in, and you will find yourself unhappy and unfulfilled again. You see, happiness comes from the inside. You can’t look to outside things for happiness. People who have nice homes or cars are not happy, even celebrities, most of them are not happy. The divorce rate in this country is 50percent. Marriage is not a guarantee for happiness. People who won the lottery have had their lives ruined. You can move and move, it will not being you happiness. You have to bring happiness into yourself, doing things that make you feel good about yourself. Doing things for others as well will provide you purpose and meaning.