Hi Cath,

I’m sorry to hear what you are going through, and can definitely relate. I too met a man from a different continent (Middle East). I fell head over heels for him. He said he wanted to move to United States as he has lost his job as a chef at a 5 star restaurant. I invested so much time with this man..but he kept saying “it’s just a dream, I will never get out of Iraq”. I kept trying to get him in Culinary schools, even offered to help with his resume, wrote to several restaurants here in U.S to try to get him a scholarship and a job. I think there was one resort that does hire people from different countries, but he never really tried, because he didn’t think He could speak English well enough. He even applied for immigration for Canada and got turned down.

I had to walk away in September, because he started to become very distant from me, and stopped trying and put no effort anymore into us. I still think about him to this day. I don’t know why. I wish I could stop.

I too am on Klonopin for anxiety and panic attacks, as well as Busphar. I know you can’t go off of it “cold turkey” as it can be dangerous, and have nasty withdrawal symptoms with severe “rebound” anxiety. I think you have to be tapered off of it slowly. But if you suffer from Chronic anxiety, and only take it as prescribed, I don’t see any problem with taking it long term. I have been on it for 8 years. Busphar for two years.

I went to the store and bought some “probiotic” yogurt..the one with live cultures and strains in it. Since, I have been eating it, I noticed a significant improvement in my anxiety. I don’t get anxious about that guy or other things, and I feel alot more relaxed, sleep better, and my mood has become better.