Dear Nydia:

I like this writing, in form and content:

“the combination of years of unhealed emotional wounds, distrust in my own self, & (most importantly)misplaced faith has created an emotional pool where there is no gentle ebb and flow, only strong tides and massive waves. I feel as if I put a lasso around the moon of life and pulled it so close into my world that everything is out of balance. All the paths that I have been seeing are gone, I am blind. The brightness of the moon singed my eyes, and now I am stumbling around in the dark.

I suddenly feel the small light inside of me. Not a flame, but an ember.
I was so close…TOO close to just letting that ember fade away into the ever expanding darkness.
I KNOW that from something as tiny as an ember, one can create something as huge and amazing as a roaring fire. A fire which means survival…in ANY situation. As long as you are living, as long as you are breathing, you carry that ember in your soul.”

I was wondering: can you define “the war in you”- who are the parties at war? (I would like to attempt to answer the “who is winning” part of your title.

anita