Dear Anita,

Thank you for sharing your experience.

I think you are right. This is about wanting to feel good. The strange thing is that I stopped overeating for a while because I wanted to feel better. And yet, getting rid of ED brings new fears and anxiety, which was just covered by the addictive behaviour.
As someone once said, every addiction starts and ends with pain. So I’m not sure how to deal with the pain, and especially the numbness, without food. It will take a while to have new healthy habits. I hope these habits will bring me the contentment I seem to be lacking.