Sorry to hear about your experiences

You Mentioned “But now, I feel nothing but doubt.”

For many the concept of doubt and uncertainty are things to fear and avoid. For some the fear of doubt and uncertainty is really about the fear of not having control.

Such people will often criticize them selves whenever the feel this way and only make the issue behind such experiences worse.

There is nothing wrong with being uncertain and having doubts and I believe such states of being actually lead the way to learning and experiencing new things. As for control, life laughs when we make plans and try to control it.  Give yourself a break and let it go and embrace your doubts.

With regards to career Most People will change careers a few times over their life time. In this fast-changing world, its important to be flexible, adapt and overcome.  After 40 years in the work force I can tell you that most people would have never guessed ending up in the jobs they have.

Yet everything you lean at school, even the failures, when looked at creatively, can lead to many different unexpected opportunities.

Collage should be a time of exploration so don’t be so hard on yourself. Don’t fear doubt but use it to open yourself up to the experience. Do your work, pay attention to what sparks with you and see were that might lead.

Fear is to Courage as Doubt is to Faith. Not necessarily a religious faith but faith perhaps in Life. Throughout all the junk you dealt with Life continued and you dealt with it. Sure, you might have found better ways to deal, but your still here, (and maybe learned a few thing) so there is no reason not to have faith that you will deal with whatever comes your way… only now perhaps, without the fear of doubt, finding better ways.

Let it go. let all the worry about some imagined future and fear of what happened in the past go. Do your work, pay attention, adjust when required and breathe. Learn better, do better, repeat. What more can anyone ask of themselves.

Enjoy your time of doubt because that’s when anything might happen and you might even learn something