Dear Mina:

I am glad to read your sensible thinking and resulting improvement in how you feel.

Regarding apologizing to the guy you refer to as your best guy friend- you wrote earlier: “I am feeling sorry for leading him on a lot of times.”- leading him on meant to me that you flirted with him, that you intentionally expressed reciprocation of his romantic/ physical attraction feelings toward you. If you didn’t do what I just stated, then you didn’t lead him on. If you felt that simply sharing your feelings with him (as one would with a best friend) was, in itself, leading him on, then … he really is no longer your “best friend”, maybe he was, but is no  longer.

A hopeful boyfriend cannot be a best friend, maybe it is time to drop the title “best friend” when you refer to him?

anita