Hi guys!

Just to continue on this thread, and because something quite shameful happened to me today, I’ve decided to vent a little. Just because I feel such shame that I can’t talk to anyone about it.

I’m staying at my friends’ place these days and anxiety has been building up. I’m going through a lot of (positive!) changes these days, but somehow that makes me freak out. And so today while my friends were out, I started eating leftovers from the fridge. My friend walked in on me. I was so, so ashamed, I tried to hide it, then I invented some stupid excuse. He was obviously not buying any of it, plus he knows of my problem because his girlfriend told him.

Now, if we were that close, I would talk to him. But I can’t. So we’re just here, in the same appartment, sitting in silence, and honestly shame is awful cause it makes me want to die.

So I know you’re supposed to go past shame. It’s really a major factor in self-destruction. But I don’t know how to deal with it. Anyone?

Thank you guys, I wish you a good day!