Absolutely Anita, your response brought swells of tears to my eyes and a sad feeling for my younger self. This is actually something I’m working on with my therapist. The other problem I have on top of it is not being compassionate to myself for feeling this way. Instead I tell myself to “buck up” or stop being selfish, so I layer on more bad feelings like it’s an icky feeling layer cake. That doesn’t taste good to anyone. I’m not sure how to get out this cyclical thought pattern right now.

Thanks for your response:)