Dear Patrick:

If you would like to elaborate on the following, so that I understand your situation better, please do:

You started with: “I know I need some kind of emotional therapy professionally”- did you attend any psychotherapy in the past,  and since you stated that you need therapy, why aren’t you attending it?

You wrote: “I developed a guard from my emotional issues”- will you elaborate on the nature of that guard?

Also: who is the person or people who traumatized you when you were a child? Do you currently interact with that person and what is the nature of the relationship with him/ her? How do you explain to yourself his or her abuse of you in the past?

anita