Dear Chau:

I thought about you only a few days ago, wondering how you were. Yes, I am walking again as before, thank you. I walked again way faster than I thought. (When I experience a problem and feel fear, I am inclined to think it will last forever).

Regarding the incongruence between how a person looks on the outside and who she is on the inside, specifically your ex girlfriend and her girlfriend who “seemed to be very friendly and kind towards (you)”, in your dream and in reality, and their “seemingly friendly face” leading you to ask, in your mind: “what do you two want from me?” –

Good question. I am offering an answer, a possibility of an answer: we betrayed you and hurt you but let’s pretend that didn’t happen. We are nice and friendly people, no harm done, and so, if you have a problem with us, the problem is you!

Directly answering your question: we want you to not see us as a problem (and if you have a problem with us, we want you to see you as the problem).

This is why it is better not to have contact with them, there is no reason for you to expose yourself to what I believe is likely to be dishonest manipulation.

I hope you handle your fears regarding the finishing the marathon within the time limit well. Prepare not only by running but by what you say to yourself, your thoughts, as these carry our fears around and around on the motorways of our brain. Fear takes our energy away, exhausting us and it causes us to react in dysfunctional ways, rushing. For example, it may stimulate you to run faster than you should, instead of pacing yourself, so pay attention.

Looking forward to your next post!

anita