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To give you a background, my mother was an only child.

I was assuming that she lived a happy life because my grandparents were rich but I guess her childhood was not that smooth. I heard a lot of rumours about my grandfather who was a prominent figure in my country had cheated and has several affairs, it was later confirmed by my grandmother – I was very sad to hear that later on.

My mother also had a very rocky relationship with her mother in law (my grandmother) – because my mom was not the usual house wife. She works outside and isn’t the type to cook and work to clean the house. My mother grew up with 20 maids, you can imagine her culture shock coming into the real world. When my grandma died, I think my mother was quite happy as well.

She got married with my father because she got pregnant with me. I secretly found an old diary of hers, during her study in Australia. My father wanted to abort me but my mother said no. I am here because of her, in a sense. For that, I will always be grateful. Maybe there are times when she hate me because of it as well, because I ruined her life.

I personally do not want to marry someone like my father, maybe my mother is thinking about this everyday. I feel so sad for her.

I do not want to hate my mother, Anita. Even If she is indeed rejecting me, imagine how life must have been very difficult for her to act like that towards me.

-Mina