[Sept 27, 2017]

Hi Gyunnie,

I cant talk for a long time with you today.

I have a morning class tomorrow and my schedule is very much packed. I probably need to rest.

Life has never been easy these days for me. I hope that you are doing well.

I remember when you told how you have no idea what are you doing in your life right now,

I am feeling the same thing right now.

3 more years and I will be done, Gyunnie. Do you think that I will make it and will still be alive by then?

I hope so .. I really do hope so. I want to see the end of this.

The real end of my life, not the end that I created by myself.

I have never realise how much you loved and treasured me until we broke up. I felt so sorry and so sad for not realising it sooner.

You always understand and supported me. Even when I was being such an annoying girlfriend, you always treat me so well.

I remember our first date while writing this.. maybe it was meant to be after all.

How did we managed to talk about 6 hours that day? On our first date?

I am surprised. I am scared. I feel like I was very blessed.

What did the great student council president saw in me?

You’re smart, you’re nice and you always try your best to be friends with everyone.

I am socially awkward, does not even like drinking, and the only thing that probably saved me is my face.

How come that out of thousands of girls here – you choosed me?

What did you see in me that was that good?

Because I am not seeing anything good inside.

Gyunnie, I miss you very much today – I wish that you are here by my side telling me that everythings gonna be ok again.

But you are … not.

I am so sorry, that I was not someone that you can lean on during the hardest time in your life.

It will remain as one of my biggest life regrets.

“I close my eyes but I see you again
I walk on the streets but I can only think of you again

Again today, if I take you out of my day
Nothing remains, there’s nothing left

Why didn’t I know that you were getting tired?
Why didn’t I know back then?

I love you so much
I only love you
I thought when this all passed
I would be okay

Why didn’t I know
That you were my everything?”

My song for you today x

-Mina

• This reply was modified 7 years, 2 months ago by Mina.