I’m thankful for your responses … Last and message before was about situation around me and a little bit about me… As i said at begin i feel lost , disconnected from myself . . I’ve been trying to move on with regular thing Jas but i can’t focus … I developed anxiety and i’m not use any medications bcs they will just kill this little emotions that i have …  Anita , i’ve been separated from my home i was in Paris but just one more traumatic expiriance anxiety got me glued and there were a lot of situations that i almost lose my mind bcs of that … I couldn’t understand how and why i developed it ,  i enjoyed beeing around ppl and now by body reacted crazy when i m around them ….  And finally as i lost my sense i made some stupid things in past , so i can’t make parallel anymore am i normal ????? I never had will to hurt someone , or to do something bad but i made things probably bcs i wanted attention , stupid once … but i made them and cover them so actually people didn’t know , but i know what i did so i have problems with guilt and sadness …..