Anita,

You wrote : “It is this emotional attachment that makes this difference.”

I am well aware, but how can I fully dis-attached from him then? Like how I am not attached to other people?

How can I put Gyunnie in the same category / level as other people?

You wrote : “I believe that Gyunnie is not the first person in your life to whom you felt such strong emotional attachment.”

That is true, the last time I have been romantically this attached to someone was to my first love.

I looked back at that experience, and I felt a lot of similar situations but this time – it is even stronger and deeper than what I had felt when I broke up with my first love.

I think the reason why this break up is very hard on me is because I do not have any support system here in Korea. All of the people that I trust is in my home country, and they are often unavailable to talk or give advices due to college assignment and exams.

I often feel alone, I have no family or a lot of close friends here. That is why losing Gyunnie was really hard to the point where I had thought about killing myself. My friends back home pushed me to just find a few friends that I genuinely like to survive for 3 years that I have left here.

Due to my relationship with Gyunnie since we dated from the very first semester of college, it was hard for me to find a lot of friends due to time and priority conflict with my boyfriend. People usually find as many friends as they can during the 1st semester but I was not able to do that due to being in a relationship. That was a mistake on my part, I admit that.

I often feel homesick and cry because I missed my home country. I have mentioned the pressure here in Korea is really tough to handle. From physical looks to personality – I have to be the one adjusting to the Koreans. I have to do things THEIR way and I feel like their culture is too single minded and too competitive for me in general.

I do not know what to do with my studies as well, I am feeling lost for a lot of reasons.

I lost my boyfriend, my reason or hope to study here at K University. I am not even sure if my major is the right major for me, there is no option for a major changing here, so my only option is doing double major which is very hard.

I am confused, no one here really believes in me (as a person) either. I am not getting acknowledgement from anyone.

-Monica