Dear Suzanna:

It makes sense to me that you experience lack of interest in things, being consumed with how to make money, no joy or peace of mind- it makes sense to me because your focus is on surviving (“just to survive”).

Think of it, if you will, this way: a plant, maybe a tree that finds itself in physical distress, not having enough water or nutrients or space, when its physical survival is at risk, it may shed its flowers, its leaves, some branches, and keep its physical body minimal. So to survive. In a similar way, when a person perceived his or her survival as being at risk, she sheds her interests, her motivations, her passions, and exists minimally with only one focus: how to survive.

Does this help any?

anita