Hi Anita, thanks for replying.

My anxiety got worse because of this guy, yes. My anxiety doesn’t go away and now that he’s gone for good did not make me feel better, as I mention I started having this breathing difficulty a month ago. Maybe now it is some kind of response to long term stress. I know I should calm down and manage this feelings  and I really want to but I feel like I don’t have strength to do anything.

I visited psychotherapist but it was one time and she didn’t propose any treatment. I feel like I should take some medications because I can’t handle it anymore, it’s too much for me. Anyway I seek ways to manage it on my own, to understand and to let go of feeling heartbroken. I don’t know how to let go and not ruminate. Thinking brings suffering, not thinking doesn’t change anything because it is in my head anyway. I feel like I’m in a trap and  don’t know how to go through this.