Dear ale,

“This could be the start, but I know that I’ll fall in few time, and I’ll re-start to find some solution to be happy/calm on the web. It is a devil loop!!”

I can relate to you as this is the way I have been too. Even the slightest of thing that takes the peace away from me will cause me to reach for a book or a web search to find what can be done to bring me back to peace again.

And just to let you know, because of this I now have a collection of several techniques AND NONE OF THOSE TECHNIQUES WORK only because the mind is looking for a problem-solution approach.

So below is what I can suggest you.

Give yourself a break from all the techniques you already know. Give yourself a break from all the mental concepts you already know.

Get rid of the aim to find any kind of solution to feel yourself better. Drop your underlying expectation that there is something wrong with me and I always need to do something to feel better. Eliminate the urge to do something to “repair” yourself each time something wrong happens in the head (or in the body in the case of anxiety).

All of those that you are experiencing is nothing but “mind activity”.
When your mind won’t let you alone feel the inner energy of your entire body.

Be more focused on your subtle energy body and do not spend so much time in following the distractions of the mind. Thoughts may come but your job is not to jump onto the train of thoughts. Catch yourself – “Ah there I was thinking again….there I was starting to make mind-movies….there is my mind monkeying around.” Go back to your inner body.

Your job is to get out of thinking. Don’t take your thoughts too seriously. All you have to do is get of your head and bring your attention back to your inner body awareness.
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Feel Your Inner Body:

If you are not familiar with “inner body” awareness, close your eyes for a moment and find out if there is life inside your hands. Don’t ask your mind…go to the hands directly. By this it means to become aware of the subtle feeling of aliveness inside them. Raise your hand and with your eyes closed try to find where your lifted hand is. It is there. You just have to go there with your attention to notice it with your eyes closed. You may get a slight tingling sensation at first, then a feeling of energy or aliveness. If you hold your attention in your hands for a while, the sense of aliveness will intensify…

Then go to your feet, keep your attention there for a minute or so, and begin to feel your hands and feet at the same time. Then incorporate other parts of the body–legs, arms, abdomen, chest, and so on–go into that feeling until you are aware of the inner body as a global sense of aliveness. Feel the entire inner body as one single energy field.

Practice this exercise to get a feel for the energy in your inner body. When you know and recognize that feeling, you can call upon it anytime you want to feel peaceful and happy. For me, the chest or heart area is where I can feel it most easily as it is more intense there. If the feeling for you is more intense in one particular area of your body then you can focus more there.

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Daily morning and night routine:

When you are unoccupied for a few minutes, and especially last thing at night before falling asleep and first thing in the morning before getting up, “flood” your body with consciousness (energy in the inner body).

Close your eyes.

Lie flat on your back.

Choose different parts of your body to focus your attention on briefly at first: hands, feet, arms, legs, abdomen, chest, head, and so on. Feel the life energy inside those parts as intensely as you can.

Stay with each part for fifteen seconds or so. Then let your attention run through the body like a wave a few times, from feet to head and back again.

This need only take a minute or so. After that, feel the inner body in its totality, as a single field of energy. Hold that feeling for a few minutes.

Be intensely present during that time, present in every cell of your body. Don’t be concerned if the mind occasionally succeeds in drawing your attention out of the body and you lose yourself in some thought. As soon as you notice that this has happened, just return your attention to the inner body.
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Feeling your inner body will cut the link with any mind activity (the root cause of all problems), making you present, giving you a sense of peace, happiness and joy again. All of these – in spite of any problems in real life. Follow the routine and see how it feels without attaching your mind to any results. The mind will ask “Is that thing working?”. Return to your inner body. Later on with the practice, along with the morning and night routine, with your eyes open this can also be done anytime throughout the day sitting at your office desk and even while talking to someone. Your quality of life will change.

If you are like me as explained at the top, you will later on start to search for articles on the web regarding feeling the inner body. Don’t do that. There is nothing more to it. This is all you ever need.

Warm Regards,

VJ