Dear Elliot8:

You are welcome.

I vote for choice # 2.

If and when you choose #2, it will not be a “happily ever after” life, no doubt. But between #1 and #2, I believe it is the better choice.

If you look for a perfect choice, the one to bring you a happily-ever-after life, none of your three choices will bring that. It is unfortunate, for all of us, that the wishful desire for eternal bliss can not happen. For anyone.

#3 by the way, is not a happily-ever-after existence. It is no existence. I can no longer discuss this option with you beyond my input so far. As long as you consider this option, please do have counseling as soon as possible, check yourself into a hospital, a clinic… call a suicide hotline. I am not qualified to communicate with you or with anyone considering such a final choice.

Back to # 1 and # 2- why I vote for #2:

Your distress at your present job is so acute, so intense, that it is now inseparable from this job. It is an automatic response to the job. It is most important, I believe, that you separate yourself from this job, terminate it as soon as possible, this week.

More physical work in choice #2 is fine. It is the emotional distress that is harming you, not the physical challenge. Less money- fine. You managed before.

Place your shame and guilt aside, please. It is about surviving now. You are okay. Really. And you will be okay. Consider not judging yourself as a Failure. It is not your doing that you were bullied earlier in life. That was not your failure and neither is your automatic distress when encountering rude people at work.

Post again anytime. And again, re-read my input on the choice #3 here on this post I am about to submit.

anita