Hi Gagan,

I am not sure what happened in your early childhood, it’s probably none of my business, but I go through the same experiences you are describing. I have severe abandonment issues and rejection as well. My mother being an Alcoholic would leave me and my siblings at a very early age alone at home while she went on drinking binges for days at a time. My father hired a nanny who my siblings and I loved very much, but my Mother became jealous and would fire her, while my Father was away traveling for his business. I would scream and beg and have a temper tantrum when my Father left, knowing I would be alone again. He was perplexed having no idea my mother would fire the Nanny and was horrified to come one day to find us living in filth, no good..nothing. We were taking taken away from my mother by the courts.

Because of the constant abandonment, I find myself leaving people before they leave me. Do you think this may be a reason you have pushed your two exes away?