The thought of wanting to stop the world and get off is normal at times, as is wanting to die when we are stuck. Such thoughts become dangerous when we stop seeing them as our desire to change and grow and instead act on them as an end in them selves.

You appear to know your in trouble so need to talk to someone. Preferably a professional.

Friends and Family mean well however they tend are connected to how they need us to be so talk of wanting to die may/will scare them. It is so difficult to know what to say when someone we care about tells us they want to die. What if we say the wrong thing… are we responsible… maybe we might even feel angry at being put into the situation and react to that…. Best to seek professional help