Every time I have a day where I feel I’m rebounding to my old self something happens to break me.
You are at an age of transition. Moving from one stage of life into another. Life/Love asks of us, sometimes demands of us, that we grow and if we resist we might experience a lack of energy and emotional fortitude. What your experiencing may be related to wanting things to remain the same but different. (Your family unconsciously may want you to stay the same)
You want to rebound to your old self while at the same time wanting a new self and new experiences so not surprisingly easy to break.
In this stage of life its ok for you to rediscover yourself with the understanding that the validation you seek may not come from your family. It would be nice and in time they might understand however you don’t have to wait for that. Its time to create new boundaries. No need to rebound to your old self when a new self is waiting for you. “You can’t step in the same river twice” anyway
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