Anita, you’re right. He values my loyalty because of how it makes him feel. He values my artistic inclination, but that’s not something he can grow from. His value system is based on prestige, yes, something I do not have. When we were together, I felt like my job was to be a good-looking companion. In this new relationship, though I am sure he finds his new woman attractive but her stronghold is her accolades. So I wonder if what he misses is the Attraction part. Also, we were building a family together, and I hope feelings of those dreams were important.

I value the good moments we shared. I have come to split this man into two. The man who loved me; with all incredible moments we shared. And, the man who hurt me; with all of the very hard times we lived. It was easy to miss him, and and yet near impossible to trust him. I value that he wanted to make a difference for the people around him, I value that  he could make me feel loved so deeply  at times, I value how artistic he was, how intelligent he was, how he would take care of me when I was down, even when he put me down. How we could play together ,  experience the smallest little things  as if we were children, and how we could dream together. To tell you the truth, his career or where he went to school or his apartment or anything that he has or the gifts that I left behind, none of it seems to be of value to me.