Dear magic:

Regarding your most recent post: when you texted him that you will kill him if he doesn’t respond to you, you killed your right, I believe, for a “nice, calm voice” on his part, as a response. You… killed your right for him to “speak to (you) in a good manner.”

This is a consequence of your threat to kill him. It doesn’t matter that you weren’t able to kill him, being physically so far away. The .. threat of it is .. how should I put it… unacceptable.

I hope you accept the understandable consequence of your threat to kill another person. What you lost, again, is further communication with him. You did not lose a future with him, as such was not to be no matter what you said or did not say.

As to your post before last: it is kind, that you don’t want to burden your sick mother. I understand that. You asked: “Why is it so heavy?”- my answer: because you carry your burden alone. You need a friend, a boyfriend who is kind and loving, present, who will help you carry your burden, so it is not so heavy.

anita