Hi Gagan,

I too felt like this. When these feelings came over me, I would think, “why do I want to do something permanent, when he is busy enjoying his life and moving on, while I am sitting here, thinking of ending everything, when something might just be around the corner? Something so much more beautiful, more fulfilling?”. Remember when you think like this, tell yourself “oh, it’s just anxiety and depression” “just thoughts” “I am the sky, depression are the clouds” the sky is bigger. Infinite.

One day at a time. Sometimes it may feel like you will take two steps back and want to call her or think of her” these are just thoughts, and like clouds drifting, the thoughts too, will go away. Be good to yourself and patient with the grieving and healing process. You are still very young. What is around the corner? Something so beautiful I bet. Stick around for it. Anita is giving you great advice. You have us here on the boards. Keep posting.