Wonderlust16 and Anita, thank you for getting back to me. It is eye opening to hear from others that moving is just a form of escaping and there is much more to it, I will def take it into account.  @Anita, indeed, dysphoria is what describes my state of mind lately. Like the whole day even, thanks for giving a hint of how to approach it.

@Wanderlust16 thanks for sharing your personal experience. I am wondering though what it technically means to actually “work on myself, understand my self better and find inner peace”. I thought I ve been working on that the past 2 years, but at the moment I feel more than lost. Or maybe at the point that I am getting to know my worst self. Recognizing all my negative patterns and really disliking who I am. I guess that’s a part of the process but can you share what you actually did and how long did it take you approx? Do you see actual difference in your daily life?