A definition of the term ‘Spiritualty’: noun – the quality of being concerned with the human spirit or soul as opposed to material or physical things. the shift in priorities allows us to embrace our spirituality in a more profound way”

Belief in or not believing in a deity is not necessary connected to one’s spirituality.

I think its important to remember that there are stages to faith and faith is not the something as belief. The examination of Deity and the concept of ‘The Good’ is one such stage

Reading through your post You seem to have equated your expectation of ‘the good’ and projected it onto a deity that is out there… somewhere in space and outside yourself. When you describe the deity he/she/it sounds like an alien being of some sort. If such an alien being existed we would in deed be screwed as we could be nothing by playthings to such a being and it would be highly unlikely that we would worship he/she/it showed up on earth one day.

I would challenge you to remove all associations you might have with words like God, Deity, Faith, Love, the Good… doing so you may discover the map, what you learned to think about such matters, is not the territory and that the journey will lead you in unexpected ways