Reading through your post You seem to have equated your expectation of ‘the good’ and projected it onto a deity that is out there… somewhere in space and outside yourself. When you describe the deity he/she/it sounds like an alien being of some sort. If such an alien being existed we would in deed be screwed as we could be nothing by playthings to such a being and it would be highly unlikely that we would worship he/she/it showed up on earth one day.
Then we are indeed screwed, because there are beings which exist ‘out there’. I am a plaything to them. I was never informed as to why they have ‘invaded’ my life, or for what reason, and I have little choice but to tolerate it or end up in a mental institution. Perception and reality are two different things. Basically, religion sanitised Pan and Dionysus; it took a force of nature, a free spirit, and put it into a box. Want to know why man is obsessed with sex? Because his Creator is obsessed with it too. This reality shattered my twee Victorian chocolate box perception of Heaven for ever. They are sex mad up there. They must indeed laugh at humans trying to be spiritual with their temples and self-appointed gurus. This is why my spiritual phase is over.
I was FAR more happier when I drank, smoked, ate meat, went fishing, etc.,…
I feel the same. I was happier in my younger days before I got involved with religion and spirituality. And really, that’s all that life is about. If you are happy and contented, then you have discovered the secret of life, you don’t need spirituality for that. Chasing after a god however, will only bring you bitterness, frustration, isolation, depression and mental exhaustion. I thought I was on a ‘spiritual path’, but it ultimately lead nowhere and my life seemed to get worse, not better. There was no ‘eureka’ moment.
Best wishes,
Tannhauser
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