A4u thanks for your reply,

i had the feeling of fear while at work today and I tried my best to really think about what was going on. I guess I was feeling quite positive, we had talked about booking a holiday this morning.  When I got to work my mind starting wandering and I started to feel sick at thinking I might be wasting my partners time and that I don’t deserve him. I get so panicy thinking about not being with him. The thought of going shopping without him, what meals he would eat etc. Makes me feel sick, I’m crying again whilst I’m writing this. Maybe I’m thinking I don’t love him enough (inner voice) but my head is telling me I go over and above for him whenever I can therefore I do love him! I need to realise this.

Something tells me this would be happening with any partner I may be with so I feel deep down it’s not him and I shouldn’t be pushing him away. I have the money and support behind me to do this alone but I want desperately to overcome this as a couple. He means too much to me to let go.

I will have a look at your website tomorrow, thanks so much for your time.