Another thing,

i remember when it happened a couple years ago… I didn’t panic. I exited the story before I finished reading I was like omg gross stop. I can’t even say I was “aroused”…. it was more like idk I can’t explain it. I guess it was just what anyone would feel reading something extremely detailed and sexual. But of course. Here I am. Right before a vacation when I was excited and couldn’t sleep. Thinking of anything to “ruin my trip before it begins” because that’s how OCD works “how can I make myself anxious and not enjoy the moment”. Let’s think about something irrelevant and stupid from 2 years ago over a sexual STORY.